I’ve been reading a lot lately about loving one another. I mean, I even have several posts already written (and in the process of being written) that are all about this idea of brotherly love.
I’m currently reading a book by Karen Ehman titled Listen, Love, Repeat: Other-Centered Living in a Self-Centered World.
While I read part of me thinks, “Oh yeah, I know this,” or “Oh yeah, I can do that.”
But truth be told, I’m actually struggling.
1 John 2:11 But he that hateth his brother is in darkness, and walketh in darkness, and knoweth not whither he goeth, because that darkness hath blinded his eyes.
I’m blinded by dislike/jealousy/bitterness/envy/competitive spirit/fill-in-the-blank-here that I feel like I am walking in darkness.
And even worse, these fiery feelings have been fanned for so long that for the first time I feel like it’s breeding into actual hate.
And that’s some really dangerous ground.
1 John 3:15 Whosoever hateth his brother is a murderer: and ye know that no murderer hath eternal life abiding in him.
A murderer!? Who has no eternal life? YIKES.
So what do I do about it? How do I handle these feelings?
I know I’m being tested. I know I have to trust God and talk to Him about this every day…
But instead of these feelings going away, I feel they’re becoming more grounded in my heart.
WHY? What’s going on?
Am I doing something wrong? Is there more I could do?
This has to change. No matter how we may feel about a person, those who claim the Christian name should not express hate, AT ALL.
And yet, it’s burning in my heart.
I’ve been given this advice: You don’t have to like a person, but you do need to love them.
I know I need help.